Even before I got to see Balasaraswati perform, I had
heard of her legend. There was this great devadasi dancer,
I had been told, who had given up performing for some
years because she did not find the artistic climate
conducive. In the puritanical discipline that I was
subjected to as a student in Kalakshetra, my world was
limited to the Adayar campus. I was touching my 15th
year when a Sri Lankan co-student, Tilakavathi, told
me about a performance by Bala. We decided we had to
see her for ourselves.
When
we did what foxed us was not her varnam but her costume
and make-up: a velvet choli and pyjamas with a drab
sari tied around the waist, none matching the other!
This dancer's aesthetic sense contrasted with everything
we had been exposed to. Nor had she the ideal dancer's
figure -- or so we thought then.
But
as Bala explored the first lines of the varnam we were
willy-nilly transported to another world. Her conductor
Ellappa Pillai was a gifted singer and Bala's dancing
seemed to flow out of his music. Here was dancing that
was not set to pre-rehearsed patterns; they seemed to
be responding to each other spontaneously. What heightened
the impact was Bala's own singing.
That
day I realised the power of true art. Music and poetry,
the "higher arts", are abstract, dealing with ideas.
Dance on the other hand is tied to the body. Besides
dance always came with an element of entertainment ingrained
in it. But with Balait went beyond, it was an uplifting
experience.
Impressionable
as I was at that age, I wanted to be tutored by her.
A friend of my father's told me that she was a performer
par excellence, but not a good teacher. Her art was
so spontaneous that there was very little by way of
technique or grammar that one could take from her. He
suggested that I be put under Ellappa's charge.
Soon
Ellappa was at our house and the lessons began: the
varnams, the padams exactly as Bala did them. One day
he composed the difficult tana-varnam, Viriboni, for
me. When I mastered it, he invited Bala to see me perform.
She agreed and after the performance said, "This girl
has it in her."
She
was a woman who was never given to empty flattery --
she was considered a proud hawk who never could see
any good in anyone else outside the close circle of
the Tanjore tradition. When during the 1940s through
the '60s a whole generation of dancer-actresses came
to dominate the scene through films -- Kamala Lakshman,
Ragini and Padmini -- she would ask, "What is this snake
dance, peacock dance thing? Is this oriental dancing?"
She might have had a limited vision and repertoire but
it was one that she had internalised deeply. While there
are many who drew from this repertoire there is none
who has her grace, depth and artistry. And the world
of dance will remain the poorer for it.
Yamini Krishnamurthy
is a dancer and teacher of Bharatnatyam.