I am a 19-year-old guy studying in Delhi. I'm writing this confession to reveal the truth which I had hidden from someone who was and will remain my first love. I had hidden the truth from everybody but now, I can't keep it within me any longer. I have to let it out.

Well, my love story started three years ago on a trek and since then our love life was sailing pretty smoothly, until the bomb fell and changed both our lives.

Actually, my gf was a very intelligent student while I was an average one. I was blindly in love with her and my studies used to get neglected because of this. She always managed to get good marks, but I wasn't able to do the same and barely cleared my class XI exams.

Then came standard XII. There was a lot of pressure on me to do well, and my recent below-average results acted like fuel to the fire. I knew I had to do something really big to make my parents proud of me. I am their only child, so I didn't want to hurt them. I wanted to live up to their expectations. So you can understand the amount of pressure I was facing.

But despite all this, we did manage to find some time for each other. At that time she was in class X and I was in class XII. Then came the summer vacation and the trek. It was after the trek that the real problems started to happen. Something struck me-it was an idea that changed my whole life.

I thought we should just call off the whole thing for some time, and then I would create so much hatred in her heart for me that she would forget me forever. After all, who would like to stick around with a failure?

I didn't want her to face embarrassment because of me. By ending our relationship, she would be away from me and escape that embarrassment, and I would be free to try and improve my results. I have to tell you, ever since then I have been regretting this stupid idea!

Well, everything went the way I had planned. I called it off and then within days I started going around with some other girl and another and another and another... As expected, she felt cheated and threw me out of her life. And by the time I realised my mistake, it was too late. For seven months I kept on pleading with her. I was almost on my knees before her but it didn't change her decision. In between those seven months my boards came and went and as expected I didn't do well in them either.

People who know me well will recognise me after reading this piece and will think that all this is a drama and another of my tricks to get her back. But only I and God know that whatever I've written here is hundred percent true, and I still do and will always keep on loving my first love. Right now she is going around with some other guy and both of them are very happy and I don't intend to create a rift between them. This is the truth, my confession to the girl whom I've loved more than anything in this world. For me this was the only way to tell her the truth.

I guess by now the girl must be able to recognise me. I want to request her not to misunderstand me. I don't intend or want to break her relationship with her present bf. This is simply the truth that I had to reveal someday. Also, I just want to say that I'll never forget the blunder I made in my love life, so I request all Teens Today readers never to break their loved one's heart because it is very easy to break, but very hard to put back.

A Neeti-house ex-Patelian
(SPV, Delhi)